Food For the Hungry Mind

Because very few people follow me, I don’t have to be worried about what they read and how they interpret it. I’ll probably sound like a whiny little teenage girl but hey. Here goes nothin’.

I miss Aaron, I can’t go a day without wishing that things were still the way they were. I thought it wouldn’t hurt when we broke up and decided to be friends, but the more I think about it, I really wish that we had gotten in a huge fight and I didn’t have to have anything to do with him ever again. I know I can’t go back with him, I know he doesn’t like me anymore. He’s happy now. But I wish I could find a way to forget about him.. The whole one and a half years that I spent with him. I would give anything to feel the way I did when he told me he loved me, or when we spent the whole day together and I truly felt that he loved me. But, I can’t have that anymore. I know I have to recover and I know I will, but I wish it was a faster process. I want to ban myself from facebook because whenever I log on, there’s something about him or I stupidly creep his profile. WHY AM I SO STUPID?!